Sad news - yesterday my beautiful Chakra was not doing well. She seemed to have trouble breathing and kept coughing. She got progressively worse and I ended up taking her to the vet at about 9.30 and had her put to sleep.
It was very peaceful - After eating all the vet's liver treats and getting kisses and cuddles from us all, she seemed a little scared but I was on the ground with her and I turned her head so she would look only at me while the vet gave the drugs to her via a drip. The sedative made her slowly lay down and I spoke to her and held her gaze while the green dream was given.
Then her light just went out.
I already miss her like crazy and had a hard night last night. Andrew was amazing - I was crying and couldn't get to sleep and he started asking me questions and telling me stories about Allie (I had ridden her that day, and he had his first proper ride on her cooling her down for me! So cute) and he distracted me enough that I was able to slip into a dreamless sleep.
My cat Evan also snuggled up to me all night long, without trying to hog the bed or claw at me. He felt my sadness I think and was helping me in his little cat way.
I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders and has been replaced by a hole in my heart, a space she used to fill and is now missing her. I have been thinking hard about having her PTS the last week, but it doesn't make it any easier.
You must all go hug your puppies, ponies, kitties, piggies, mousies, birdies, and what-ever-elsies that have your heart and hold them tight to your chest for me, because they won't be there forever and even 1000 years would still be too soon to say goodbye.