Monday, 18 July 2016

Nerves

Allie has been doing well lately. I've only been able to ride her once or twice a week but those rides have been good. She's due some body work and her teeth (both booked in for the next few weeks) so she's a little wonky but still trying hard as per usual. It's been generally wet so the dust levels are low and her coughing is non-existent, so yay for that. She's jumping amazingly, her dressage is going well. I need to take her out for some dressage lessons, I need more direction there. Jumping too I guess.

She's plenty fit enough to do a dressage day so yesterday I started looking at when I could take her out for a prelim test or two. I immediately got nervous for no bloody reason and ended up shutting the browser down. Like, seriously, we can handle a little prelim test. But apparently I'm traumatised and just can't not stress about it.

Bah.

I'll try again in a few days.

In other news, I offered Allie up for part lease again and a girl came and tried her yesterday. I need help keeping her in full work so she's fit for eventing and a part lease with the right rider really is the answer. She went well, wasn't scared or worried about Allie but is happy to have a string of lessons with me so she undershot to ride Allie and the direction we are going. She's coming again tomorrow morning for another ride/lesson, so hopefully she goes well. She seemed to really like Allie yesterday. :)

I'll leave you with a throwback to Silver Hills hunter trial, just when her coughing issues were starting. Poor mare.

2 comments:

TeresaA said...

The nerves could be related to the fear of disappointment. You also become more aware of your safety with motherhood.

Lisa said...

You've hit the nail on the head there - I'm an terrified of being disappointed again.